Answer in Details
I understand your pain and fear. In the teachings and philosophy of Lord Shiva, there is immense emphasis on compassion, forgiveness, and the power of sincere repentance.
Lord Shiva is known as the "Ashutosh"—the easily pleased one—who forgives those who truly repent and seek forgiveness. In the same way, approach your mother with humility and honesty. Offer your heartfelt apologies to her, just as a devotee surrenders before Shiva, knowing that true repentance melts even the hardest of hearts.
You may also pray to Lord Shiva for strength and clarity. Chanting the Mahamrityunjaya Mantra is believed to bring healing and protection to those who are suffering:
"Om Tryambakam Yajamahe
Sugandhim Pushtivardhanam
Urvarukamiva Bandhanan
Mrityor Mukshiya Maamritat"
This mantra is powerful for healing and is often recited for the well-being of loved ones.
Additionally, Lord Shiva teaches us the impermanence of life and the importance of embracing each moment with love and sincerity. Spend time with your mother, care for her, and express your feelings openly. Do not let fear or guilt hold you back from showing your love.
Remember, Shiva teaches that every moment is an opportunity for transformation and healing. May Lord Shiva give you the courage to mend your relationship and peace to your mother's soul.